There is this question that keeps on bugging me since i graduated college- What will i be?

For a BSN graduate like me, it should not be a question anymore! what else should i be… to become a health care provider of course! To be a nurse! And supposedly, i should be looking for  hospitals to work in, for training programs, or for any nursing related activities! Well, I’ve already done some of these for x-times (don’t think I’ve done it for many times because i tell you, super not!) it is indeed not enough! i should be trying some more but it’s not what i am doing! I admit, I’m out of focus! But it does not mean that i don’t have a dream (because i have lots), or I am just too lousy to act. It’s just that, every now and then, I see myself in another profession… in business!

I’m split into half!

I know that to be a nurse and an entrepreneur at the same time is possible. it can happen to me. The problem is, I’ve got a disorganized thought (correction, its not the same as what schizo patients have okay?) I mean,  my plans are chaotic, unsystematic, messed up, rumbled, disorganized,  (or any words that are synonymous to the aforementioned) The point is, i haven’t accomplished anything yet (not to include my achievements until i passed the board exam)! There are times that i act in pursuance of my nursing career then halts as i shift in planning of a good business. How screwed it is! And most of the time, it’s the case why i had episodes of headaches…and of empty pockets for worse. I’m diseased!

It took me minutes of contemplation until i realized what was wrong. It’s not my two-at-a-time want, nor my plans on how to be a competent nurse and a successful entrepreneur… there is something missing… there is Someone missing in me as i go over this ‘building my career’… its Jesus.

I am in a mess because I wasn’t paying attention to my Greatest Teacher, I was working and deciding alone…

How come i forgot the very fact that without Him, I will be nothing!

And now i know what’s the cure to my disease… it’s Him, Jesus Christ!

As long as i pay attention, as long as i fix my eyes on Him, i will be on the right track… i can be both, a nurse and an entrepreneur someday. With Him, my entangled plans will be disentangled. And as long as I do my works for the Glory of His name, I will succeed…